Well I’m on summer break now.  I’m not sure what I’m suppossed to be doing.  I thought I was going to have to work real hard to make money, but my girlfriend got a job and now we’re going to be rich….in spirit.  To help solidify our chances of becoming financialy solvent, we are both trying to quit smoking.  This would be a tall order for anyone I think, but our chances are retarded by the fact that now both of us work in a cigarette discount store.  I think Carol could likely quit cold turkey.  I am not capable of cold turkey at this point.  That is why I am currently an hour and forty-five minutes without a cigarette, but about to light one.  I have tried cold turkey and I have never gotten past 6 hours using that method.    I tried as hard as I could to quit smoking the week my final grades posted.  Which eventually turned into both of us trying to space out our cigarettes as long as we could per day.   I had two nice 4 hours in betweens, which I might point out is almost as long as I ever went cold turkey.  Soon after those 4 hours spaces I started to go back to pretty normal >.<  smoking, which is a about 2 packs a day.  Well half of my motivation to quit was because its so expensive, but with Carol getting her job at lowbobs money is less important than it has been these last 5 months.  I’m really afraid that if I let the false and misleading mindset that smoking is no longer financially irresposible to set in I’m going to still be smoking and poor when I’m 40.  The other reason is health.  I’ve gotten pretty frickin healthy from almost every possible standpoint in terms of diet and exercise.  I probably eat about 2300 calories a day which 90% of the time comes from the healthy categories of foods (vegetables, whole grains, fruits, good fats), and on average I get about an hour and a half of good exercise a day.  Now to me that all seems fairly uptown, but I can’t shake the feeling that I might as well be playing WoW 13 hours a day and washing down that new KFC chicken death patty with mountain dew and some kinda of fried potato, if I’m going to continue smoking.  Luckily this works out differently.  The more money I have the more my brain says its ok to smoke.  The more healthy I get the less my brain wants to smoke.  I bought a bike last weekend at a police auction.  I also bought two 10lbs weights last week because I think I have a little bird chest.  The bike is not yet operational, but I have incorparated the wieghts into my mid-day yoga routine.  I’m doing a routine I designed to give me less of a bird chest three days a week.  This is the first time I will have put a space in between a series of targetted muscles.  I am excited to see if they get bigger faster, since I’m giving them time to rest, unlike the daily yoga.  To help with the muscle building I’m being less stingy with my eating habits.  Meaning I’m trying to get a minimum of 2300 calories, and I love those parent bought resteraunt meals, I just go to town. 

As a side note Im now officially at a 2 hour space between smokes.  Two hours in the worst because you never stop looking at the clock.  Anyhting over two hours and you get this awesome period where you dont worry about the time because you have so long to wait anyway.  This is an excellent observation on my part and I will hopefully use this aspect of withdrawal to ratchet myself away from the smoking habit.

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